TITLE: LUNAR EFFECT AUTHOR: Blackwood URL: http:/members.tripod.com/black.wood/index.html E-MAIL: entreamis@yahoo.com CATEGORY: Story, MSR, RST, Angst RATING: Varied (PG13,R,NC17) SPOILERS: Trust No 1. Nothing else major. ARCHIVE: Yes. With permission, name and headers intact. SUMMARY: Rendezvous reattempted. AUTHOR'S NOTES: Happy Halloween fellow philes! Like the Nickelback song says, "It's been awhile," but it sure is nice to see you again. Gratitude to Audrey Roget, Forte and mountainphile for encouragement and great beta. My holiday treat is an angsty tale. My trick is that it will be posted in four consecutive, daily segments. Suspend belief and enjoy the ride! LUNAR EFFECT by Blackwood Doggett drives. Reyes checks the mirrors for telltale signs of anyone who might be following. You sit in the back of the car and stare out the tinted window. Winter's early dusk descends as back road becomes Main Street. Heavy industry gives way to commercial venues. The ubiquitous white church slips by, along with grocery stores, coffee shops and varied houses, exterior lights flickering on against the dark. Periodic street signs provide prophetic warning: Danger... Yield... Stop... Stop... STOP. You wish that you could. Stopping at a traffic light in the middle of town, you spot a couple walking together. They see only one another as they move towards an alley, ignorant of your gaze. Two become one in the shadows against the brick wall. You remember the way it felt the last time *he* held you like that. The synapses of memory are only newly formed. You worry you'll forget. It's the second time in as many weeks you've failed to connect with Mulder. The first attempt was shocking: the murder at the depot, the revelation that you are under surveillance and, of course, the death of the Super Soldier -- smashed against the quarry wall. Tonight you waited at a different depot in a different town, coordinates changed. Doggett and Reyes again accompanied you, taking every precaution to protect you. Again, you wore the scarf he sent at Christmas, remembering his scrawled note: "Saw this and thought of your eyes." You imagined the way he must have caressed it, sliding the material through elegant hands, calling to mind the touch of those hands on you. The train stopped and you scanned the platform for a familiar figure, but when it pulled away you were still alone. An hour later you realized he wasn't coming. "He must know something you don't," Reyes suggested, taking your arm and leading you to the parking lot where Doggett waited behind the wheel of the car. "You okay?" he asks as you pulled open the rear door and climbed in. "I'm fine," you respond knowing it a lie, uncaring whether he believes you or not. Approaching from the flatlands, the luminous bauble of the lit Capitol building glows in the far distance. D.C. has its share of grime and crime, but the Federal District is beautiful -- the monuments, the intrinsic power and prestige, the deep symbolism and classic architecture. You're a patriot at heart, but the meaning you sought in your work has somehow found its expression in another place. Odd that it would be motherhood that gives you the purpose you'd hoped to find in medicine, or the F.B.I. for that matter. Single parenthood is challenging, even with Mom's help. You now understand what she endured, raising her brood while Ahab was at sea. How she must have missed him. You remember the photos she showed you when you were little so you'd recognize Daddy when you saw him again. It concerns you that the mementos of your life with Mulder reflect only casework. Cold comfort comes from the knowledge that you restored his parental rights and that Will's birth certificate reads Scully-Mulder. Reyes turns in her seat and looks directly at you. The harsh glare of headlamps accentuates her dark eyes and the sheen of her hair. "Dana," she begins, voice soft with empathy. "Really, I'm fine," you reiterate, curtailing further inquiry. She nods and looks at her partner. His eyes remain on the road, but you note the subtle nod and cheek twitch. They've already begun to develop a code. You and Doggett never dID. You made certain of that, convincing yourself that Mulder's return was imminent. When you left field work, it no longer mattered. Up ahead, traffic slows. It's a given during weekday rush hours, but on a weekend? Choppers thump the night air. "Something's up," Doggett announces, switching the radio off. A snake of cars bends around a curve. Reyes pulls out her cell phone. It's going to be a long night. *~*~* If ever you needed a guardian angel, it's now. Scully once told you she believed in angels, that everyone is given one at birth to watch over your life and help you "cross over" when you die. You don't remember seeing anything like that during your interment, but you lack memories of that time. Does that mean you dIDn't qualify for Heaven? Or is that the meaning of Hell? Shit. Only you could end up being the subject of the biggest X- file of all and not recall any of it. You boarded the train at Tyson's Corner after a tedious bus trip through New York and Pennsylvania. Your communiques with the Gunmen were limited to pre-designated checkpoints. Even so, you doubled back in Binghamton, certain you were being followed, and now you're late with no way to advise Scully -- again. An express train rushes by on the opposite track sending tremors through you. All at once, you're captured in lucid nightmare... ....shallow puffs of breath keeping terror at bay. A hard, cold device restrains you and you hear the muffled screams of other abductees. The air is thick with the smell of fear and some odor you don't recognize. Your captors approach. You don't want to see them, even disguised in a remembered image plucked from your mind. When they reveal their true form, you're repulsed by the bulbous cranium and vacuous eyes... ....They probe your body with cool, spongy digits that make your skin crawl. Their mouths never move, but you "hear" their vivisection plans with mounting horror. You're shaking as the device pivots and you stare into a blinding overhead light source. They plunder your mind, examining thoughts like tangible objects. Pleasurable or painful; it makes no difference. They record every nuance of reaction... ....a game of catch with Samantha on a beach. You feel the sun on your face, share childish laughter. Then, suddenly, her frightened voice calls your name, imploring your help. Fear... Tears... ....the scent of burning tobacco and the tang of lager as impassioned voices argue foreign policy at a pub. Faces from callow youth rise before you. Phoebe is there, laughing... ....the taste of blood is in your mouth as an iron fist connects with your jaw. You're mugged, thrown onto a trash heap. Diana's hands are soothing... It hurts... ....the heat of arousal and the feel of Scully's limbs wrapped around you, mouths merged, tongues probing. You have no control over the orgasm that spasms your body or the probes that convert your pleasure to equal pain... ....Their intrusions are unwanted, unwelcome, unstoppable. They rape your psyche and your body again and again. They bisect your chest, exposing your battered heart. You're not a praying man but now you pray for death, for release... ....How long have you been here? Where, in fact, is here? A strange whirring vibrates the room and you are wracked by sound waves that render you conscious and unconscious at will. In the midst of your torture, you hear a voice, the only one you recognize. It's a beacon, a lifeline to sanity. But it is far away and fading fast. You call her name, torn from your lips. Your reward is a wash of heat and pain that robs all breath, all thought -- until a single mantra pulses its electro-chemical message to anyone, anyone who can hear... ....Find me...Find me...Find me... "--all right, sir?" You start and look up into the eyes of the train porter. You must have been out for a while because this isn't the same one as before. He's leaning over the back of the seat ahead of you, a wary expression on his pale, drawn face. No, you're not drunk, you think to yourself, running a hand over your mouth as your pounding heart slows. "I'm good," you declare. He nods. "Your ticket?" You reach into the pocket of your leather jacket. Handing over your stub, you take a deep breath, still recovering from the involuntary flashback. The porter notes your destination and furrows his brows. "'Fraid your trip's gonna be a bit longer." "How's that?" "Conductor says there's a problem at Grangeville." You check your watch then stand, grabbing your backpack from the seat beside you. "Where can I get off?" you demand, taking him by surprise. "We're heading to New Delphia. Should be about twenty minutes." "That's more than I can spare." You stride down the aisle. One way or another, you're getting off this train. *~*~* Choppers drone above, searchlights burning off the night. A dozen vehicles wind around a curve in the road, blocking your sightline to the problem, whatever it is. A State trooper approaches the car. Doggett lowers the window with one hand while reaching for his badge with the other. "What's goin' on, Officer?" he asks, flashing his badge. "Chemical spill at one of the trucking facilities," the elder man says, hand resting on an unsnapped gun holster. Reyes leans towards the open window and flashes the man a winning smile. "We need to get to the Beltway." "Where you headed?" "Baltimore. Is there another way through?" She plays it sweet while Doggett watches the mirrors. Rubbing a hand through a stiff white crew cut, the cop shakes his head. "'Fraid this two-lane is it. Might be a while." Doggett grunts his displeasure. "Thought I left the L.I.E. back in New York." "You from 'round there?" "Born and raised." The officer dips down, peering into the back seat where you sit without a sound. "You all Fibbies?" "Yeah." The man is cheery enough, but there's something in his attitude that raises the hairs on the back of your neck. Call it instinct. Call it intuition. Whatever it is, you don't like it. Looking through the rear window, you spy two dark sedans slowing behind the Taurus. "We've got company," you murmur just loud enough for the car's occupants to hear. "Lemme talk to them," Doggett offers, unbuckling his seat belt and opening the door. The trooper is forced back, but he stays nearby. "Be careful," Reyes warns. "Yeah," he says without inflection before leaving. He pushes the door closed with a thud and leads the cop away from the car. Reyes is on her phone. "What are you doing?" you ask. "Getting us help," she replies. You both peer through the windows to where Doggett stands speaking with the cop and two men in dark coats. Their voices are low and you strain to hear their exchange above Reyes's call. "Brad? It's me." You wonder how it is that she and Follmer know one another so well. She absorbs the sarcasm you're certain Follmer is dishing. You? You're ready to scream in frustration. "They say it's a chemical spill," she goes on. "I don't buy it." Her words echo your own sentiment. "Find out what you can, okay?" You watch Doggett. His tone is earnest and the spooks are listening. You're not surprised. He's adept at leading others. It's a characteristic you've come to depend on. He gestures towards the road block and the dark men shake their heads. Then they look over at your car. When Doggett turns back, you see them look at one another. He slips back into the car, tugging his coat out of the way before pulling the door closed. "They're sticking to their story." He keeps his gaze forward. "You think it's true?" Reyes asks. "I dunno." "I called Follmer." Doggett's head turns so that you're watching his profile. "What'd he have to offer?" "He's checking into it." "I'm sure he is." The edge of sarcasm takes you by surprise. "Something's wrong, John," she adds. "I feel it." A single helicopter scouts overhead, its high-beam focusing on one car, then another. "I agree," you say with conviction. The car is bathed in light. You lean forward. "Doggett," you begin. "I'm on it," he asserts, cutting a sharp left out of lane. The trooper jumps aside to avoid being hit and yells for backup. Doggett juices the engine and you carve a swath through the center median. You hear the slam of car doors and the squeal of tires in pursuit. Your body is jostled without mercy. "Jesus, John!" Reyes cries above the crunch of wheels on gravel, her hand gripping the strap above the door as metal and rubber shudder off the shoulder and back onto pavement. "Get us out of here!" you shout. "That's what I'm trying to do!" Doggett exclaims as he guns the motor and you flee. ~*~*~ The landscape is shifting from rural fields to suburban sprawl. Time to move. The porter follows you to the end of the car, insisting you stay put. Several passengers look up to hear what the commotion is about, wondering if their safety or comfort is in jeopardy. "Listen," you say, opening your jacket so he can see your gun. You show him the phony Private Investigator ID the Gunmen provided. "I need off this train now." His eyes widen, but he stops arguing and grabs a transmitter. The train slows down as he speaks with the conductor about a *possible* stop. "Don't worry about it," you interrupt, then yank open the sliding door. A blast of cold air whips around you as you step onto the iron coupling between the cars. The porter yells, "Hey!" as you toss your pack out and follow soon after. Tumbling into gravel, you roll down the embankment and into tall grass. You're up and running before anyone can follow. You stick to back roads, hitching rides and searching for place markers. The light is fading, your body is sore from the jump and it's getting colder by the minute. You know you're in Virginia, but you need better bearings. Your last hitch has dropped you off in farm country without much cover except for a filling station and an adjacent auto graveyard surrounded by chain link fence about a hundred feet down the road. It's better than nothing, so you head for it. You slip through a ragged opening in the fence, hoping to find an unlocked vehicle where you can rest for a bit. The discarded vehicles are dusted with grime and gloom. You try a few handles, but they're all locked or rusted shut. Snaking through uneven aisles, you decide to forego a break and look for an exit. When you finally see it, the double gate is closed. Beyond lies asphalt, a low-slung concrete structure and a single gas pump. Dingy yellow light spills onto crumbling concrete from the inside of the office and an incandescent flood light above the pump. You decide to risk making a transaction or a call. There might even be coffee. That's when you hear a soft snarl at your back. You draw your weapon slowly, the growl increasing by increments. Turning your head just enough, you see it waiting at the end of the row -- tense, dark body hunched forward, sleek head low with glinty eyes and bared teeth. Doberman. Hostile E.B.E.'s have nothing over this beast when trained to kill on command. It's difficult to aim in the darkness, so you press your back against the wheel of the vehicle you're squatting beside and slowly lift the barrel of your gun. The dog takes two steps forward and you cock the trigger. All at once, there's a crash and rattle of trash cans. The dog's head lifts towards the noise. Someone shouts "Rambo!" in a deep bass and the beast hares off. You stand and creep forward to the end of the row. There you see the dog in a stand-off with two raccoons. A tall, broad figure is standing inside the now-open gate, yelling, "Git 'em!" You step into sight with your gun drawn, held low in front. "Excuse me," you shout. The man looks your way, as does the dog, who immediately takes several steps towards you. "Who's there?" he calls. "I'm an investigator and I need to get through this yard. Can you get your animal under control, please?" A sharp, two-note whistle pierces the air and the raccoons disappear into darkness. The dog trots half-way towards its owner, then turns back to you. "I've got I.D., but I need you to grab that dog," you say in your most authoritative FBI voice. A short leash is clipped to the dog's collar. "Thank you," you say, holstering your weapon. Keeping your distance, you move into clear sight. In better light, you notice that the guy is younger than you'd thought, neat cane rows accentuating a dark-skinned, clean shaven baby face, despite your guess that he's in his early twenties. His girth is an illusion created by the dark green puffy down jacket and baggy black jeans he wears. A gold earring in the shape of a cross adorns his left ear. "You legit or just a peddler waitin' on a score?" he asks, cocking his head at you and raising an eyebrow. "I'm on a case." You start to reach inside your jacket. Rambo growls. "Settle, girl." The dog sneezes, then sits. A quick glance confirms *her* gender. You hand over your ID and wait while the dark side counterparts of the Michelin Man and Dog size you up. "Who you after?" he finally asks. You holster your weapon, but keep the safety off and the snap undone. "I can't discuss the details," you say, pocketing the returned slipcase. You look over at the lit office. "Any coffee?" "Nothin' you wanna drink," he replies before giving you a smile. The gesture transforms his features and all at once, you relax. You scratch behind one ear, then point at the dog. "Rambo?" The kid shakes his head. "My Pops thought it was funny at the time." "There's nothing funny about that dog." "Yeah, she's a bitch," he proclaims with pride. "You got one?" You drop your chin and arch your brows. "A dog." "Me? No. I'm away from home-- a lot." "Where you headed?" "Where are we?" "Outskirts of Onacock." "Interesting name." He snickers. "It is that. Look, I'm closin' up. You need a ride to Main? "I appreciate it but, no." "It's a troop into town, no doubt." You blow the air out of your lungs in a slow push past pursed lips. He does know the area. "Look..." you begin, hand gesturing towards him in question. "Jaquan, but my boys call me Jaz." "Jaz, I gotta go." "You may act like a cuffer, but you're not in pursuit." "How do *you* know" "I seen TV." He sounds slighted, voice rising in pitch. You assess your options. "You always offer rides to strangers?" "I can handle myself. Besides, Rambo's comin' too." "Great," you reply with little enthusiasm. Jaz locks the gate and the office, Rambo trotting alongside. All three of you load into a detailed, black vintage Mustang parked behind the building. Rambo jumps through the front seats into the back, then turns and presses her front paws into the center console. She's panting with excitement, her head uncomfortably close to yours. You wish you felt as happy. ~*~*~ Doggett loses your pursuers. You may not have trusted the man at first, but he's proven a reliable partner and agent. Monica Reyes, on the other hand, is still a puzzle. Her concern for people is genuine and you like her easy-going approach. Her embrace of extreme possibilities reminds you of someone else whose ideas lurk on the fringe, but she's more of a team player than Mulder ever was. Mulder. Time and again your thoughts turn to the man you thought you'd see tonight. It doesn't take much to evoke the feel of his arms holding you, his mouth warm on yours. You close your eyes, remembering his voice, his face, the weight of his body pressing you into the pillows. The last time you saw him, you were a new mom. The paternity test established Mulder as Will's father as biological fact, but it wasn't until you saw him cradle his son that you fully understood the transformational power of love. His scattered emails are lifelines in a sea of worry. The last one arranged a third and final attempt at rendezvous but still, you are alone. It's quiet in the sedan except for the sports announcer calling the U. Maryland vs. Chapel Hill b-ball game on the radio. Go Terps. The highway is left behind and you don't question Doggett's direction. Fatigue takes its toll and thoughts wander. Despite your best efforts, you're beginning to understand that your life, and that of your child, will never be normal or secure. It's a burden that troubles you more and more. You close your eyes thinking of how things *might* be... ....Outside, the trees are crayon red, orange and gold. Inside, coffee brews. As you put out the cereal bowls, you hear them pounding down the stairs -- father and son. They burst into the kitchen, Will in the lead wearing the ever-present fire fighter's helmet you're certain will graft onto his skull soon. Trouble is, Mulder is wearing one, too. "Hats off at meals, please," you proclaim. "Awww, Mom." "Yeah," Mulder chimes in. "No fair." "We need our hats so's the people know we're rescuers." You remove Will's helmet and set it beside his bowl. "You can rescue them after school. Eat your breakfast." He begins his breakfast and you lean over to kiss the top of his head. As you do, a hand caresses your bottom. You go to move it, but it evades capture, sliding to your waist and drawing you in. You pivot and stare at the second "firefighter." "Kiss me," he says. "Mulder," you warn. "Kiss me," he insists. "Lose the hat," you bargain. He does so and you lean in. He catches your lips with his own, then murmurs, "I do a great fireman's carry." "Tonight," you whisper back. "Count on it," he promises in a tone you know well. You'll be thinking about it all day now. Oh yeah. You glance towards Will who remains oblivious to his parents, aware only that life is good. You hear your name being called. Once, then again... You downshift into reality and open your eyes all at once, disoriented. Reyes is turned towards you, a small smile on her face. "What is it?" you ask in a tired voice. "We thought we'd stop to get a bite." "Where are we?" Doggett jests, "Somewhere, Virginia." You're slowly cruising beside a pleasant village green. Like so many other small towns, you're certain you can predict in advance the type and location of varied structures. There's the church with its cemetery, the post office and the Laundromat. Law enforcement will have a niche somewhere with the firehouse a likely neighbor. There's a gas station on one corner and a pharmacy on the other. Anything else is a bonus. Here, it's a pizzeria situated mid-block on the far side of the large green. "Is Italian okay?" Reyes asks with undue cheeriness. "Again?" Doggett pouts. "I thought you liked pizza," she retorts, disappointed. "Pizza, yes -- in New York where they know how to *make* pizza." "John," she chides. "It's true. Ask me what else I miss." "I know, I know -- bagels." "Yes, bagels. Hot, fresh bagels made on the premises." He grows animated. "Crispy on the outside, doughy on the inside, smothered in cream cheese and lox." He notices you both staring at him. He shrugs, adding, "Now that's a sandwich." "Maybe some other time," she warns. "Right now, it's Virginia pizza or nothing." The restaurant looms on your right. "Italian it is. I'll just grab one of these spots--" "It might be better to keep the car out of sight," you intervene. "She's right." "O-kaay," he cedes to being overruled. He deposits you at the curb. "I'll meet you inside. Order me some ziti, if they have." "Got it," you say and he drives off. The meal passes with Reyes and Doggett chatting about anything but the evening's events. Your entree looks appetizing, but tastes flat in your mouth. You barely eat half before pushing the rest away. An hour later you're back outside waiting for Doggett to bring around the car. Across the road, the park's antique lamps throw scattered light onto meandering walkways, empty park benches and a large white gazebo at the center. "It's pretty here," Reyes comments, surveying the scene. "Yes," you agree. "Sometimes I wonder what life would be like living in a place like this." "Instead of the city?" "I mean normal." You look at her and she meets your eyes. "Whatever normal means." She shrugs with a smile. Her phone rings and she picks up. "Agent Reyes." A minute passes and she ends the call with nothing more than "Thank you" before hanging up. She looks away and back at you. "That was A.D. Follmer. He says the chem spill was real -- that intelligence was there because the property sits adjacent to a government facility that houses some classified materials." You give her a non-committal look. "I know. It sounds fishy, but I can't think of a reason not to believe him." Your look remains constant. She sighs and pockets the phone. "Mind if I smoke? I know. It's bad for me, but I could use one right now." "I'm not your mother," you reply. "Thanks, Dana." She heads across the street and lights up. A black sports car drives by, slowing in front of the pizzeria before continuing on. A minute later, it re-appears and suddenly pulls to the curb in front of you, and on the wrong side of the road. Instinct makes you unbutton your coat so your weapon is available. Reyes's back is to you and you spy Doggett in the Taurus coming down the block; but before you can signal to either agent, the vehicle's window is rolling down. You're ready for anything. ~*~*~ You once told Scully about your fear of fires. You don't think she realizes that it was merely the top of the list. You hate to admit it, but man's best friend is no friend of yours. Rambo senses your unease, stuffing a cold, wet nose into your ear. Not wanting your actions misinterpreted, you sit motionless, tolerating her snuffles. Jaz presses a button on the lit console and a melancholy riff fills the car, volume high. A brief pause and then a heavy bass rhythm rattles the chassis, thumping through you as a raspy voice sneers a choice expletive and a hip hop song begins. Back road meets paved highway and the car moves onto it. Thankfully, Rambo loses interest in you and pulls back, lying down on the rear bench with a sigh. You breathe easier. Your driver is swaying with the music, lips mouthing lyrics in identical, precise cadence. The rage pouring through the song is palpable. The circumstances described are different from your own yet, somehow, their truth resonates and you feel camaraderie with the young man beside you. Still, as the song draws to a close, you ask, "Mind if we lower the volume a bit?" Jaz obliges. "Sorry," he says. "Didn't mean to offend." "I just thought we might talk." "Word. What's on your mind?" You're tempted to actually tell him your tale of woe, but refrain. "The usual. Basketball, food, work." "You shoot the rock?" "Played Guard in high school." "Fly. I cover Center. Who do you favor?" "Gotta go with the Knicks." "You from New York?" "No, but Sprewell's impressive." "Say what?" "All right. Who do *you* like?" "No doubt, Shaq's the man." "How far you think he'll take the Lakers?" "All the way, brother. All the way." You chuff at his surety. "So, how old are you?" "Twenty." "Goin' to school?" "Community college. Coach says I can get some transfer money. Been scouted but, so far, no offers." "Grades good?" "Have to be. My Pops would kill me." "Sic Rambo on you, would he?" "F'sure." He smiles again and lays a massive hand on the dog's head and fondles her ears. Rambo's tail thwacks the upholstery. The two-lane road you're traveling twists through empty pastureland. Jaz was right about town being a distance. It's been ten minutes without any sign of life. "How much longer?" you query. "Nearly there," he responds. As if on cue, you round a bend and light streams from the covered porch of a house set on the side of the road. Another house appears, then another, interspersed with other buildings, each adding color and glow. A carved wooden sign welcomes you to Onacock, Virginia. "And I thought my name was bad," you mutter. "Dawg, you need a handle." "You mean a nickname?" "Yeah. Somethin' your friends make up about you." "Like...Spooky?" "Yeah, like that. Spooky. Cool." "Cool is not a word associated with me, Jaz, but you make it sound that way. Thanks." "No problem." "By the way, you can drop me off anywhere." "Whadaya mean?" "I just need to find a library or an internet hookup." He shakes his head. "Library's closed now. There's a café 'cross town. They might have internet. I dunno. Never been." "I'll find it. Pull over." "Sheeit. I've gotten you this far. I'll get you there." You relent, but remain uneasy. Jaz turns the radio back on with the volume low. You're in the heart of town by the look of things. It's a quaint place with a nautical flavor, sitting as it does on the shoreline. You think Scully would like it here. "So what's it like being a Truth Hunter?" Jaz asks, interrupting your reverie. "Truth Hunter?" You look at him, unfamiliar with the term, but liking it nonetheless. "Yeah. Somebody that checks up on your hunny to see if they're cheatin' on you." "Ah. Actually..." You scratch your chin. "It's ...uhhh... interesting work, seeing if the...honey...has left the hive, so to speak." He chuckles to himself at that. "So, you followin' somebody?" "Sort of. Truth is, I was supposed to meet my partner, but our plans changed." The car is moving past the town square, a traditional gazebo at the center. The park is empty except for a vagrant and two women crossing the green. Their backs are to you, but there's something familiar about them. Jaz goes on, "I thought you Private Eyes worked alone." "Sometimes." You stare through the windows. One woman is tall and lean. The other is petite and you swear her hair is red. "He on the case, too?" "She -- is on the case, yeah. Jaz? Swing around the corner, would you? I need to check something." "Your partner's a woman?" The boy turns left at the corner and left again. "Yes." Jaz chortles to himself. "You take me for a fool?" "Excuse me?" Your attention shifts back to the boy. "She pretty?" His directness annoys, then amuses you. "Yeah," you reply. "My girlfriend is fit, mmm-hmmm." "Fit?" "You know, beautiful." The car revisits the square and, this time, your mouth drops at the sight of Scully entering a café with Monica Reyes. Your body stirs at the sight of her. "Turn here and pull over." "Café is still a couple blocks away." "I said here." Your voice is low but firm, and the boy follows instructions. "Listen," you say, unbuckling your seat belt. "My partner is here. I saw her." Your hand is on the door latch. "You mean that fine lookin' redhead?" "Yeah." "I'm way ahead of you, bro." Your brow crinkles. "You are?" "You need a quiet spot. Am I right?" "Right," you drawl wondering at his peripheral vision. "Well, I'm the one's gonna make that happen." "You are?" you repeat, mildly confused. "See, not only am I the best Center Ruskan Community College has seen in twelve years, but I am also one heck of a player." He smiles that perfect smile again and you realize the definition of his last word possesses two meanings. A slow smile crosses your lips. "Jaz," you say. "I owe you." ~*~*~ The Mustang's open window reveals a young man in the front seat with a large dog in the rear. "'Scuse, me," the boy calls and you take a few steps towards the car. "Your name Lula Mae?" "What did you say?" you ask, eyes widening upon hearing the alias you and Mulder agreed upon when your rendezvous was first arranged. "I said, are you Lula Mae?" Your heart beats faster. "Yes." "That bein' the case, my boy says to tell you 'Varjak waits.'" You draw in a breath. Varjak is an alias, too...for Mulder. You look down the sidewalk and spot John Doggett approaching. "My friends are with me. Let me tell them what's going on." "No time." "Who are you?" you demand, frustrated but hopeful. "You want the 411, you come wit' me." His attitude smacks of adolescence, but nothing more. Doggett pulls the car to the curb a short distance away and waits. You look over to where Reyes stands, watching the exchange. Throwing her a pointed look, you say, "I'll be in touch." Then you get into the passenger side of the Pony. The double cams rumble as you pull away and the window beside you rolls up, cutting off escape. Not that you want one -- not until you know about Mulder. You glance into the backseat. The dog's ears prick forward, liquid brown eyes wide. Through the rear windshield, you see Reyes and Doggett standing in the middle of the road growing smaller by the second, then disappearing as the car turns the corner. You've been in spots like this before. Staying calm is key. It isn't long before the car rolls to a halt at a four-way intersection with a single flashing stoplight. The boy cruises through, then turns into the parking lot of a tractor dealership. It's after hours and there's no sign of life except for a stray cat meandering across the asphalt. He keeps the engine running, but turns to face you. "Check it. This guy comes through my Pop's junkyard tonight. Turns out he's a detective or some such. Says he's lookin' for someone, so I offer a ride. We get here and that's when he sees you. Says he got to talk wit' you." "What's his name?" "Told me not to say. Just tell you that thing about Varjak. What's poppin' wit' that?" "Better you don't know. Where is he?" "At a friend's. You hookin' up on the sly?" His eyes narrow, taking you by surprise with his cavalier innuendo. Seeing your stony reaction, he assures, "S'alright to be sneakative. I get it." When you show him your badge, he sombers. "You really FBI?" "Yes, and I suggest you take me to my partner. Now." Your last word is more ominous than intend and the dog softly barks. "Down," the boy commands and the dog resumes her prone position with an audible sigh. The boy shakes his head at you. "Is your partner FBI, too?" "In a manner of speaking." "Damn." You're trying to stay calm in spite of the mounting evidence that Mulder is not only waiting somewhere nearby, but has involved this boy in things. "Just take me to where he is," you say with deliberate care. "Let's do it," he replies. Shifting the car back into Drive, you're on the move again. A few minutes later, you're back in town, turning off Main Street onto a quiet, residential street. The improbability of what's happening overtakes you, gripping you with sudden anxiety. Is this a trap? Is Mulder the bait? Or you? Your mind is spinning as the car pulls to the side of the road. The boy takes out a cell phone and punches in a number. You're parked beside a wooded area, the only house visible being the one across the road, set back at the end of a long driveway. A yellow bug light flicks on, illuminating cement steps that cascade to a narrow slate pathway that curves its way to the street, and an impossibly slim girl emerges. She walks down the path and crosses the road to the driver's side. The boy lowers the window and she bends to see inside. "What's up, baby," she coos to your driver, multiple dark braids skimming her shoulders. "You Lula Mae?" she directs at you. "Yes," you reply, anticipation filling you with a sense of urgency. You can't help but look at the house, straining to see movement. "Well, go on," a voice prompts beside you. You face the boy who brought you here. "I don't even know your name," you say. "Better you don't know, right?" A smile plays around his mouth. "Right," you answer, tugging at the door handle. You wait while the girl gets in. The radio is playing a soulful ballad. She waves to you as they drive off, their music fading, until the only thing you hear is the beat of your heart. A cold breeze ruffles your hair. You tuck it back into place and square your shoulders, all at once unmindful of the chill that surrounds you. You walk towards the house. ~*~*~ The kitchen you're sitting in is small, but cozy. Across from you sits Khari, Jaz's current flame. She's a pretty girl in her late teens with a café au lait complexion, dark hair and striking green eyes. A dozen baby barrettes in neon colors adorn the dark braids that fall below her shoulders. Khari also loves to talk and ever since Jaz left you in her care, she's done nothing but, and without breathing. Or so it seems. "I don't usually entertain strangers," she goes on. "But Jaz is down with it, so it's cool. We've been together for almost a year, but I'm not ready to settle. I have plans." "Really?" She leans forward, resting her chin in her hands, her elbows propped on the table before her. "I'm a freshman at Ruskan so I have to take all these lame courses. You know. But next year, I can start my training in Early Child Care. I'm gonna be doin' internships and all kinds of practical stuff like that. Once I get my degree, though, I'm going to leave this place and move to Richmond." "Why Richmond? "Everybody knows that the big companies pay the best and that's where they are. I'm gonna take some business classes, too, so I can start a chain of day care centers for workin' moms and their kids. That's so important. My Mom raised me by herself. I know how hard it is to be a single parent." "What about Jaz?" She lets her hands fall flat on the table, arms extended. "Oh, we'll see. He says we're getting engaged just as soon as he finds a job, but I think a woman has to stand on her own two feet anyway. Oprah says so." "Oprah," you say with a nod. When her cellphone rings, you're glad for a reprieve. "What up?" she chirps to her caller. She gestures to you with her free hand, index finger pointing up. "It's Jaz," she whispers to you, then says into the phone, "Bye, baby," before disconnecting. "Make yourself comfy," she says, rising from the table. "I have to finish my toilette." Then she leaves. Comfy is not how you're feeling so, after waiting a minute, you follow her into a hallway that runs parallel to the front of the house. Off the tiny corridor are two closed doors to your right and another straight ahead. To your left is a doorway that leads to a small parlor. You enter and note an equally small dining room to the right of that through a wide, rounded arch. At the front of the dining room are two large windows overlooking the front yard. You wait there, shielded by the draperies, waiting for the Pony to reappear. You like the fact that the house is set back from the road and somewhat removed from the rest of the neighborhood. When Jaz's car pulls up beside the woods across the road, your focus sharpens. There are no street lights, but the moon has risen, casting patchy illumination through the thick, bare branches. Meanwhile, you hear Khari moving through the house, her high heels clacking against the wooden floors. When she reaches the parlor, she calls, "Hey. You in here?" "Right here," you say, reluctant to leave your post, but doing so. The sweet girl who chewed your ear off earlier has transformed herself into a glamorous young woman. Boot cut blue jeans are topped off by a pink baby tee replete with the title "Bling Queen" spelled out across the chest in rhinestones. Barrettes have been replaced with three inch gold hoop earrings. Heavy gold bracelets jingle on both wrists bearing tribute to her self-proclaimed royalty. Jaz clearly wasn't the only player in this relationship. "There some wine in the fridge," she says in an off-handed way. "Not much to eat though." "Khari?" "Yeah?" "You look nice." She smiles saying, "Thank you," as if she knows it. Rummaging through an oversized gold shoulder bag, she pulls out a lighter. "You like candles?" She ignites the wicks of three pillar candles of varying heights arranged on the table. "Jaz always thinks we're gonna set the house on fire. He's whack." She looks back up at you in question. "The candles are fine," you reply, amused but aware that she's trying to be helpful. You wonder if you should return the favor and warn her about the tendencies of young men. You settle for, "Thanks." "We'll be back at midnight," she says. "Then it's me and Jaz time. You get my meaning?" So much for your paternal concern. "I got it covered," you respond, hands in your pockets, feeling both way too old *and* like an adolescent waiting for Mom and Dad to leave so the party can begin. "Uh-huh," she intones, then chuckles. She leaves, pulling closed the inside entry door. Then you hear the heavier, outer door seal shut. You return to the window, nerves stretched taut. Jaz could be overconfident. Scully could be stubborn. She also might not be alone. That *was* Reyes in the park, after all. The window rolls down and you see Jaz and Khari talking. A woman alights from the vehicle, trading places with the girl, and your worries fade as Scully faces the house. By herself. The car pulls away and she stands motionless. Your mind strains to accept the synchronicity of it all. A gust of wind blows her hair across her face. It's longer than you remember and as she tucks it back into place, you smile. ~*~*~ You enter the living room and turn off the torchiere beside the sofa leaving the room lit only by candlelight. You wish you could do more to make things romantic for her. You haven't seen her since the day you left her and William to fend for themselves. The outer door creaks open and shut. You say nothing, stepping back until you're standing under the arch, waiting. Your pulse and your breath quickens while your hands and groin tingle in anticipation. Scully pushes open the inner door and steps into the parlor with caution. "Mulder?" she calls, her voice sweet and worried. You see her before she sees you. She is the angel of your dreams and the demon of your isolation. As beautiful as ever. No, more so. She turns and closes the door and then turns back. "Mulder? Are you here?" You step forward and she faces you with a start. "Jesus! When are you going to learn--" Her chastisement is stopped by your mouth covering hers. She is limp in your arms, soft with surprise. Then her arms tighten about you and she leans into your embrace. One kiss becomes two, your tongue parting her lips, begging entry. She responds without reservation, her hands pressing into your back. The roaring in your ears is matched only by the pounding of your heart as you hold her against you. You leave a trail of kisses across her face. You hear her sigh your name as you whisper, "I've missed you." She leans her face against your chest and you bury your face in her hair. After a minute of reveling in her presence, you pull away. "Why don't you stay awhile?" you murmur into her ear, all the while unbuttoning her coat. You push the heavy garment from her shoulders, allowing it to drop to the floor behind her. "Mulder--" "Shhh," you reprimand, placing a finger to her lips. "I think we're alone now." She goes quiet under your attention. Her outfit is simple: black skirt, black suede boots with the usual killer heels and a blue silk blouse. Her blue woolen scarf is still wrapped around her neck, but you'd place bets that a small gold cross lies beneath. On anyone else, the outfit would be tame. On Scully, in the eyes of the man who loves and wants her, it's intoxicating. "I got the color right, didn't I?" you ask with exaggerated concern as you unwind the wrap at her neck, pausing to brush your fingers against her throat, your thumb at her collarbone. She nods, a small smile playing about the lips you want to kiss again. You grasp the now-loose ends of the scarf from beneath, the backs of your hands against her blouse, trailing downwards until they rest against the soft upper curve of her breasts, sending a new wave of heat coursing through you. "It's perfect," she replies, her voice controlled despite the pulse you observe at her throat and the trembling you feel under your touch. "Thank you," she says then adds, "Wish I could say the same about this sweater." She lays her hands against your chest and slides them upwards. "Scratchy." "Sorry," you reply with a brief moue and tilt of the head. You take a small step back. "Now you--" It's arousing as hell to know that what was once off-limits is now yours for the taking. The asking? Is it taking or asking? She interrupts your inner debate with a smile and a gleam in her eye. "How much time do we have?" she asks. "Never enough," you reply in truth, before you pull her to you once more. And so, in the end, you neither take nor ask. You simply comply, your lips hovering above hers just to savor the moment. Then her hand is around your neck, bringing lips down to hers. Her mouth is warm and pliant. Her tongue slides against yours and you groan, your body's response rising against her. She is caviar and champagne for a man who's been living on bread and water. And she has the same effect. You're hungry, dizzy and craving more. "Love me," she sighs when your lips finally part. You press her against the door while you unbutton her blouse. Her bra is black and lacy with a plunging front. Much better than the innocent stuff she used to wear. Much. You cup her left breast, passing your thumb to and fro against her nipple erect beneath the lingerie. She closes her eyes and hums her approval. You watch your hand slip beneath to caress her flesh, the pebbling of the aureole increasing as you stroke her, her breath growing shorter. She pulls you towards her with her hands at your hips and, with eyes closed, unbuckles your belt and undoes your jeans. Love the dexterity. You remove your hand and reach down to free your turgid cock, inhaling sharply as she grabs you. Thank God for the "fuck me" boots. She's now tall enough for you reach her sex without stooping. You shift your weight to your left side so your right hand can reach under her skirt, tugging it up as your fingers slide between her legs and into her special garden of delights, moist with arousal. You expect panties, but a thong? Go Scully. You laugh softly and her eyes open. She regards you with a dreamy look. "I told you I'll always keep you guessing," she murmurs with a smile. "That you do," you growl, easily pushing aside the thin line of fabric and sliding your hand over her, one finger teasing her open. She moans, then responds by pulling on your cock. A wave of sensation flows directly from there up your spine and into your extremities. As you push forward into her grip, you simultaneously slip a finger inside her. She shudders, but keeps her hold on you light but steady, letting friction do the work. Good girl. You pull back and a guttural groan escapes the back of your throat. Meanwhile, your thumb finds her clit and you begin slow circles there. You could easily spend some time right here, bringing her to climax before intercourse. You've satisfied her both ways and prefer... well... both. It's all good. The scent of sex play and melting wax fills the air. Just beside you, hugging the wall, dance the shadows of your bodies in motion. A part of you observes it like some surreal, sensual puppet show. That's when you hear those two little words that ratchet things juusst a bit more. Scully says, "Do me." You pull back and she protests the retreat of your hands on her. You almost regret it because her hand leaves you as well. Still, better things await. Bending at the knees, you support her weight on your arms and lift. She is light and agile and she wraps her legs around your waist, her hands gripping your shoulders as you push her back against the door. She leverages herself between it and you. You support her with your left arm in order to grab your cock with your right, guiding the tip into her. Once you're sure you can manage it, you thrust upward. She nearly takes you all the way in, but not quite. A partial pull out and you thrust again. Sweet Jesus. You're nearly done before you begin and you want this to last forever, even if it can't. You try without success to think about anything but what you're actually doing. Or feeling. Or what Scully is doing, which is rotating her hips front to back with every lunge. Each time you pull out, her back lifts a bit from the door and each time you thrust, it hits with a little thud. It's sort of your own little rhythm track, especially as she adds that little 'oh!" sound at the end. The ache in legs tells you you're not twenty-five anymore, but life on the run has kept you in pretty good shape. Your cock has become the Grand Central Station of sensory overload, pushing you further and quicker towards orgasm than you'd like, but not quick enough. A few minutes brings you close to finishing, but you sense from the frustrated sounds she's making that Scully's not getting what she needs. "Touch yourself," you encourage. She says nothing, but her right hand leaves your shoulder to slide between your bodies. You feel the movement of her hand on herself, fingers flat and closed as she worries her clit. You widen the angle between you so she has spac. Her frustration transforms to pleasure as momentum increases. The visual you're getting is enthralling and you slow things down, staving off the rising swell inside you. The room is filled with a symphony of sighs, moans and soft encouragement. Scully pulls you close with her free arm, her forehead to yours. Her hand is now pressed tightly between you both and she rides it while grinding against you. All at once, her back arches and you brace your right hand on the door. She cries out in a series of short moans and you feel her orgasm spasm around you. A hazy miasma blocks all but the feel of you sheathed inside her like a glove. Grabbing her left hip, you hold it as steady as you can while you slam into her again and again. It isn't long before you're over the edge, in that place called Ecstasy, exhaling from the back of your throat in one long, sustained wave. Wves of pleasure pulsate through you, followed by the deep core push of your seed, leaving you weak at the knees. Somehow, you manage to stay upright as she collapses around you, her body still twitching from the firestorm you've generated. "I love you," she breathes against your ear, then slowly slides off your flaccid cock until her feet touch the ground. You pull away, too, leaning sideways against the door to close your jeans and catch your breath. You're exhausted, content to watch Scully smooth down her skirt and button her blouse. She walks to where her coat and scarf still lay puddled on the floor. Picking them up, she tosses them on the sofa. "Did I do much damage?" you ask through slitted eyes, pride tingeing your voice. She gives you a pointed look. "I'll send you the dry cleaning bill." Then she disappears into the bathroom. Your watch reads 11:25 p.m. You've already spent too much time here, but you wouldn't have traded it for anything in the world. You buckle your belt and cross the room, flopping onto the sofa. You doze, your eyes re-opening when you feel Scully settle beside you. You open your eyes to find her watching you, eyes filled with love and concern. You know you need to go, but stall for just a bit longer. "Pretty amazing, isn't it?" you say. "Us finding one another." "It wouldn't be the first time." "And it won't be the last. Jaz and Khari will give you a lift back to town." "Is that their names?" "Didn't they tell you?" "Mulder, for all I knew tonight, I could have been taken hostage and sold into a harem for a sheikh's sexual pleasure." "Weren't you?" She smiles. "I know you came with Agent Reyes." "And Doggett." "You're kidding." "Mulder--" "What did I say?" "It's *how* you say it." "I just don't think the guy likes me." "Like that's ever mattered." "You know me -- Mr. Congeniality." "Well, they’ve both been good friends to me. To us." "I stand mollified." "Not corrected?" "Never." The playful give-and-take reminds you of better days and for a few brief moments the years roll back between you. Then the moment is gone and you see a shadow cross her face. "You know we're being watched -- Will and I. All the time. Probably even now." "Yeah. The Gunmen sent me an email about your run-in with the Super Soldier. Whoever is behind them, they've probably been watching us for a long time. I don't know if they're connected to the black oil conspiracy, but I'm working on it." You grow heated in the same way you always do when you know she's actively listening. "Scully, the vaccine is almost ready for mass inoculation of the public. I believe these Super Soldiers may be appearing to prevent that from happening. What happened to you that night tells us there's a way to fight them." "I'm tired of fighting, Mulder. I just want to live -- you, me and our son. I want to live freely, safely; and I just don't know if that's possible anymore." Her mention of William stops you cold. You have no argument against the overwhelming imperative of a mother's love. "How is he?" you ask, hesitant, not wanting to upset her. "William is beautiful." And then she is leaning into you, her breath uneven. You can do nothing but hold her, forever if need be, until the tears you know are falling abate. You understand your role in their creation, but you suffer, too. So. You embrace for uncounted minutes: supporting one another, comforting one another, loving one another. When she finally lifts her face, her blue eyes are clear, her countenance serene. "I have something for you," she says. She reaches for her coat and pulls her badge from the inside pocket. Your brows furrow as she opens the leather case and reaches behind her sleeved photo ID. Between her thumb and index fingers is another, smaller picture. She hands it to you and your brows lift in wonder, your mouth partially ajar. It's Will, wearing a jaunty cap and a precious smile. For a man never at a loss for words, you find yourself speechless, but smiling. "I just wish you could see him in person," she says, wistful. "Soon," you promise and she nods acceptance. Then you stand and she follows. "When will I see you again?" "I dunno, but keep those cards and letters coming. I do manage to check a computer now and then." "Don't worry about us. Just take care of yourself." God, you love this woman. You go to the dining room and don your jacket. Scully approaches and places her scarf around your neck. "Baby, it's cold out there," you say. "You need it more than I do." You kiss her forehead and move past her into the kitchen, heading for the back door. Just before you open it, you hear your name once more. You turn and she is at the entry, unable to resist one last look. "I'll always love you," you tell her, then leave. Outside, you double wrap the scarf so it covers your mouth. You inhale, and the soft wool warms your breath and releases her scent. Tucking your hands in your pockets, you look up. The moon is full in the sky, surrounded by a glimmering halo. Scully would say it's simply ice particles in the upper atmosphere refracting the moon's reflected light. *You* remember an Indian Guide story your father once told you that hailed the Halo Moon as a good omen to the great Mohegan tribes, abetting and aiding the hunter in his pursuits, shedding light on the terrain during the night so he would not falter. Well. Sometimes you are the hunter and, sometimes, the hunted. After all, you are the Fox. Tapayu. END